In February 2016 I began to write about my experience of early motherhood; an experience of such unexpected, powerful, immersive strangeness that I needed to find some way of placing it at a little distance, of beginning to analyse it or maybe just trace it, through writing. This writing has grown into a full-blown life-writing practice, centred on a recurring connection between my experience of motherhood and ideas of haunting, of presence and absence and repetition (daily and generational). This practice makes up the creative-writing side of my PhD.
The critical element of this PhD looks at how, through theories of the spectral, intersectionality, queerness, feminism, failure and anecdote, amongst others, we might aspire to transform and re-possess language in an attempt to express the ineffable. There is failure inherent in this project, but I hope a valuable, generative kind of failure.
I live/work in London and am studying for a PhD in Creative Writing here at Kingston University.
Recent publications/events:
2022: Failure: the Ghost and the Mother, Alluvium Journal, Special Edition 10.1
2021: Failure: the Ghost and the Mother, talk at BACLS-WHN 2021 Virtual Conference
2021: An Intersection of Motherhood and Chronic Illness, chapter in From Band-Aids to Scalpels: Motherhood Experiences in/of Medicine, Demeter Press
2021: Cascading Transitions: Becoming a Writer and Engaging with Neurodiversity in Response to Motherhood, chapter in Women in Transition: Crossing Boundaries, Crossing Borders, Routledge
2021: Race/Gender Matters Research Group Event: ‘Failure and Care' with Lisa Baraitser, Kingston
2020: I so wanted to ask you… video piece, Writers' Centre Kingston
2019: Illness/Parenting/Writing, performance, Writers' Centre Kingston
2019: The Role of ‘Place' in My Creative Life-Writing Practice, talk, Genos/Matter/Theory Conference, Kingston
2018: Cascading Transitions: Becoming a Writer and Engaging with Neurodiversity in Response to Motherhood, talk, Women in Transition Conference, Kings and Oxford
2018: Objects of a Maternal Haunting, chapter in Everyday World-Making: Towards an Understanding of Affect and Mothering, Demeter Press
2022: Failure: the Ghost and the Mother, Alluvium Journal, Special Edition 10.1
2021: An Intersection of Motherhood and Chronic Illness, chapter in From Band-Aids to Scalpels: Motherhood Experiences in/of Medicine, Demeter Press
2021: Cascading Transitions: Becoming a Writer and Engaging with Neurodiversity in Response to Motherhood, chapter in Women in Transition: Crossing Boundaries, Crossing Borders, Routledge
2018: Objects of a Maternal Haunting, chapter in Everyday World-Making: Towards an Understanding of Affect and Mothering, Demeter Press
2016: Article for Mamsie (Mapping Maternal Subjectivities Identities and Ethics) blog, http://mamsie.org/2016/06/29/a-maternal-haunting/
2021: Failure: the Ghost and the Mother, talk at BACLS-WHN 2021 Virtual Conference
2019: Place in a Temporal Haunting of Motherhood, Genos/Matter/Theory Conference, Kingston University
2018: Cascading Transitions, Women in Transition Conference, Kings and Oxford Universities